我是在美国之后才得知1989年天安门六四大游行和大屠杀。我在国内接受了从小学到大学的一套完整的共产党体制教育，所以在我来美国之前我根本就不知道有天安门六四事件。在国内天安门六四事件就像是从来没有存在过一样，在来美国之前我从来没有听到过也从来没有看到过任何关于天安门六四事件的报道。这是共产党的一贯作风，只要是对共产党是负面的消息一概封锁试图永远剔除出历史的长河。所以中国就有些非常奇葩的尴尬的和让人无法理解的事情：譬如防火墙，让国内人不翻墙就看不到国外媒体报道的负面的新闻；譬如封存天安门六四事件，不想让任何中国子孙后代知道；譬如杀人灭口就是为了不让表达反对意见; 譬如新疆大型劳改设施为了同化不同信仰的少数民族……
来了美国之后才让我看清了并且认识到中共的恶毒之少数人极权和习近平独裁的本质。我一直对中国存有幻想和期待，就像很多人一样放不下那一份思乡之情和对出生地温暖和美好的回忆虽然本质是非常艰难的。可是一个个的前车之鉴让我奉劝自己不要再对中共统治的中国抱任何希望和幻想。因为那里根本没有希望。那些早期在海外学成归国的，最后都没有落得什么好下场: 被关监狱，被劳改，被无尽的折磨活得猪狗不如。而且那些学者很多都是被冠上了莫须有的罪名，就这样不明不白的被中共白白消耗量自己的短暂的一生。何其可惜！也可悲他们对中共的希望促使他们做了这样让他们后悔终身的抉择。
本次六四活动是自疫情以后第一次大规模的游行和抗议。我们从32街出发一直游行到中领馆的对面码头， 并在码头上集会抗议。本次的活动主席分派我去申请游行和集会的许可证。我花了很多时间，打了很多电话去询问需要什么许可证并且如何申请这些许可证。其中最麻烦的是码头的使用许可。为了这个许可证，我还参加了有5个人组成的听证会。最后他们五人内部讨论以后决定通过并且让我们免费使用他们的码头。这个码头使用许可证下来以后，要本人当面去第十警局申请高音量许可证。由于码头场地使用许可已经批准，第十警局很快批准我们的高音量许可。游行许可是在网上提交，它虽然没有申请费，但是非常详细，我花了好几个小时才填完表格提交给NYPD。最后这个游行申请也被批准了。 因为这个游行许可批准了，所以在游行的时候，有多警察在沿路拦住十字路口的车辆，让我们的游行队伍有序安全的通过。其中还有两位便衣警察随行我们的游行队伍，他们是Andy 和Bert。非常感谢那么友好的NYPD！游行到达码头以后，换上了第十警局的人，其中有Jerry是便衣警察待命我们的抗议。再次非常感谢那么友好的NYPD!
虽然我本人没有经历过天安门六四事件，也许也无法生临其境地体会当年民运幸存者的那种满腔热血和泪流满面 的心情，但是我可以体会到人们追其自由和民主的决心和对中共的不满。由于我也参与了此次的游行活动，自然就多思考了一些问题。
让我想不明白的是，经过那一次中共屠杀无辜学生的天安门六四惨案，为什么中共的体制没有改革还是以一党专制得以延续下来？而且现在把大多数国内的人洗脑成认为中共专制没有任何问题。因为很多人根本不了解还会有另外一种制度存在。他们无从也无法判断和得知中共的独裁专制是一切中共恶毒之源！中共的独裁统治让中共失去了被竞争和被监督的可能。一个政党是由人组成的，人如果可以有无限大的权力，而这些权利不受到制约和平衡，那么这个人就会无所不为，肆无忌惮地侵犯他人的利益。中共党有无限的权利，而且没有对手党来制约和平衡，这样那些生活在这种极权独裁的制度下的人永远不可能是人，只是政党的工具和傀儡。所以中国永远不可能做到真正的以人为本。想必大家都有体会，中共的警察怎么没有像NYPD那样友好？中共的官员和警察普遍认为普通民众就是贱民不值得尊重! 所以非法抢夺财物，非法打人逮捕人无所不为！在他们眼里，普通民众贱如草菅，他们如果要你的命，你就得交出你的命；他们如果要你的钱财，你就得交出钱财！没有任何法律可以保护你，因为在他们眼里他们就是法律!
相比之下，台湾在流血事件之后，采用了两党制，实现了民主选举和一系列真正的民主措施！为何中国在六四之后却没有任何改变？中共还在等六四事件平息之后在世界的舞台上张牙舞爪，还不断强大，通过把人们视线转移到经济方面的自由，让人们放弃了政治方面的诉求。 很多人在能够吃饱饭以后就不会去拼命想要民主和自由！所以中共是很邪恶也是非常狡猾的！
所以，我想我作为新民运人，去年刚刚才加入队伍，我们需要秉承六四精神与中共不断抗争！我们希望中国有一天可以在体制上实现民主，而不是中共下台，又上来一个跟中共一样的独裁党！这是我们最不愿意看到的！我们要民主和自由！我们要坚定不移，勿忘六四！ 中国民主党纽约全委会 李翠云
2023年6月3日
Some Thoughts of a New Pro-Democracy Activist After Participating in the Commemorative Parade of the 1989 June Fourth Massacre for the First Time
I only learned about the 1989 Tiananmen Square Massacre after I was in the United States. I received a complete set of education in the Chinese Communist Party (“CCP”) system from elementary school to university in China, so I didn't even know about the Tiananmen Square Massacre before I came to the United States. It was as if the Tiananmen Square Massacre had never existed in China’s history. Before I came to the United States, I had never heard or seen any reports about the Tiananmen Square Massacre. This is the consistent style of the Chinese Communist Party. As long as it is negative news about the CCP, the CCP will block it and try to eliminate it from the long river of history forever. Thus, China has some very strange, embarrassing, and incomprehensible things: such as the Great Firewall, which prevents domestic people from seeing negative news reported by foreign media without going over the wall; such as the purpose of killing in order to silence and prevent people from expressing dissenting opinions; such as the large-scale labor reform facilities in Xinjiang are used to assimilate ethnic minorities of different beliefs....
It was only after I came to the United States that I saw clearly and realized the nature of the CCP’s vicious totalitarian regime and Xi Jinping’s dictatorship. I have always had fantasies and expectations for China, and like many people, I can't let go of the homesickness and warm and beautiful memories of my birthplace, although it is very difficult in reality. However, after I read one and another story about other people make me realize that I should not hold any hope and illusions about China being ruled by the CCP anymore. Because there is no hope at all. Too many of those who returned to China after studying overseas in the early days did not end up well: they were imprisoned, reformed through labor, and endlessly tortured to make their lives worse than pigs and dogs. Moreover, many of those scholars were charged with trumped-up or false charges, and their short lives were wasted by the CCP for no reason. What a pity! It is also sad that their hope for the CCP prompted them to make such a choice that they regret for life time.
This June 4th demonstration and protest is the first large-scale demonstration and protest since the pandemic. We marched from 32nd Street to the pier opposite the Chinese Consulate and held a protest on the pier. The Chairman of the China Democracy Party New York National Committee (“CDP”) assigned me to apply for permits for parades and rallies for this event. I spent a lot of time and made a lot of phone calls asking what licenses were needed and how to apply for them. One of the most troublesome is the permission to use the pier. I even attended a hearing with 5 people for this permit. In the end, the five of them decided to approve after an internal discussion within a week and let us use their pier for free. After the use permit of the pier was obtained, I had to go to the Tenth Precinct in person to apply for an amplified sound permit. Since the pier use permit has been approved, the Tenth Precinct quickly approved our amplified sound permit. The parade permit was submitted online, and while there is no application fee, it is so detailed that it took me hours to fill out the form and submit it to the NYPD. Finally, the parade application was approved. Because the parade permit was approved, during the parade, many policemen stopped vehicles at the intersection along the road, allowing our parade to pass through in an orderly and safe manner. There were also two plainclothes policemen accompanying our parade, Andy and Bert. Thanks so much for being so friendly NYPD! After the parade arrived at the pier, they were replaced by people from the Tenth Precinct. Among them, Jerry was a plainclothes policeman standing by for my protest. Thanks again for being so friendly NYPD!
Although I have not personally experienced the June 4th incident in Tiananmen Square, and I may not be able to experience the passion and tears of the survivors of the pro-democracy movement, I can understand people's determination to pursue their freedom and democracy and their Dissatisfaction with the CCP. Since I prepared for the parade and also participated in this parade, I naturally thought about some issues.
What I can't understand is, after the Tiananmen Square Massacre of innocent students, why did the CCP's system continue as a one-party dictatorship without reform? And now most people in China are brainwashed into thinking that there is nothing wrong with the CCP’s autocracy. Because many people simply don't understand that there is another system that exists. They have no way of judging and knowing that the CCP's dictatorship is the source of all the CCP's viciousness! The dictatorship of the CCP has made it impossible for the CCP to be competed and supervised and checked and balanced. A political party is composed of people. If a person can have unlimited power, and these rights are not restricted and balanced, then this person will do everything and violate the interests of others recklessly. The CCP has unlimited rights, and there is no rival party to restrict and balance, so those who live under this totalitarian dictatorship system can never be human beings, but just tools and puppets of the political party. So China will never be able to truly put people first. Everyone must know that the police in the CCP can never be as friendly as the NYPD. CCP officials and police generally believe that ordinary people are not worthy of respect! Therefore, illegally robbing property, and illegally beating and arresting people are common incidents! In their eyes, ordinary people are as cheap as grass, if they want your life, you have to give your life; if they want your money, you have to give it! No law can protect you, because they are the law in their eyes!
In contrast, after the bloodshed, Taiwan adopted a two-party system, and achieved democratic elections and a series of real democratic measures! Why did China not change after June Fourth? After the June 4th incident calmed down, the CCP revived and even spread its claws on the world stage, and it continues to grow stronger. By shifting people's attention to economic freedom, people have given up their political demands. Many people will not desperately want democracy and freedom after they are no longer hungry! So the CCP is very evil and very cunning!
Therefore, I think that as a new pro-democracy activist, who joined the team last year, with others, I need to uphold the June Fourth spirit and continue to fight against the CCP! We hope that one day China can achieve institutional democracy, instead of the CCP stepping down and another dictatorial party like the CCP coming up! This is the last thing we want to see! We want democracy and freedom! We must be firm and never forget June Fourth Massacre!
China Democracy Party New York National Committee, Li, Cuiyun
June 3, 2023
